^_^ Konnichiwa minna-san! If you already saw this fanfic at other sites
you might notice that this version is quite different from others. This
is because *gets teary-eyed* I accidentally deleted my fanfic from my
disk. *reader sweatdrops* In addition to that, I deleted it TWICE! I'm
not a computer expert at all. *reader face faults anime style* Gomen
nasai, minna-san for babbling on like this! It justs helps me be a
little optimistic when I start babbling on and on like this to no one
in particular. Don't get me wrong! I don't want sympathy. I want
readers and feedback. So, first thing is first. I thank you endlessly
minna-san for checking out this fanfic of mine. It means a lot to me.
*goes starry-eyed* However, this is my first fanfic I have ever
completed in my whole life, so I don't blame you if you leave right
now. But I just want you to know that I have impressed many people with
the story, essays, etc. I have written. *stands up straighter* Those of
you that are still here and plan to read on I congragulate you for your
open-mindedness. Ja ne! (for now) ^_^

Disclaimer: I do not own CCS. *sniffles* I do not own the characters.
*sniffles some more* I just write this stuff for free. Don't sue me.
I'm broke. *sideways glare at parents* *reader sweatdrops*

Key:
" "= Dialogue
~*~*~= Scene Change


Reflect

By: ~*~ moonlit stars ~*~ (stelis_petals@hotmail.com)


She ran through the dense forest at record breaking speed not bothering
to push aside the thick branches cutting through her pale skin. Behind
her Li Syaoran followed pursuit along with her trusty advisor and
guardian: the golden-eyed Cerberus.

"Onii-chan please be okay," she whispered pleadingly under her breath.
"Please."

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I knew she was coming. I wanted her to come. I happily awaited her
arrival. She was going to seal me into a card. I anticipated this. I
wanted a master to obey. It frightened me beyond reason that I was now
at liberation. I wanted her to seal me-and fast so that I would not
have to do such mischievous things in order to attract her attention. I
disliked having to upturn penguin stands and alarm her friends with my
unruly behavior at the stationery store-only to be neglected. I had
asked her to pay attention in many ways, but she payed no heed. She did
not capture me and seal me into a card like I wanted her to. Instead
she stalled. The more she stalled my capture, the more frightened I
became to liberation. The more frightened I became, the more I reacted
by causing havoc. Why did I cause havoc? To attract her attention, of
course. To let her be aware that I am not yet sealed. To give her a
reality check.

I finally did. Thanks to him. Thanks to him I could keep the dignity I
was left with and refrain from going on my hands and knees and begging
her to seal me. But to this extent... ? I glance down at him. At this
state he is unconscious from his fall, leg stuck in an awkward
position- possibly even broken, cuts and bruises studded into his
handsome, youthful face.

Thanks to him I will find the one thing I have lost: a master which
will command me.

But I never wanted this to happen. I never wanted him hurt. I felt like
I was using him to get what I want. He helped me. I wish to pay him
back somehow. But I can't visit his Okaa-san because I am not a ghost
or an ordinary spirit. I am a Clow Card created from magic.

But do Clow Cards feel emotions? I am confused. Is that not an emotion?
It is. I do feel emotions. Guilt, confusion, sadness, sorrow, is what I
feel on one side of my heart. Anticipation, and hapiness is what I feel
on the other. Yet what is this hot, wet fluid that runs down my face?
And why do I feel and overwhelming amount of sadness in my heart
compared to the small trifle of hapiness?

I look at him again and I long to heal his wounds. But I do not have
that power. I can only reflect. It could come in handy though. I can
only pray that he is alright. His kindness stirs and uncertain depth in
my heart. I wish to see him again, apologize to him, and thank him for
his help.

I turn around and feel her approaching me along with her guardian and
rival. She gets angry at me for hurting her Onii-chan. I hang my head
in shame. A drop of the wet fluid lands on the ground. She is
taken-aback. She clearly did not expect this reaction.

She tried to weaken me by using The Windy and The Watery but to no
prevail. She was then informed by her guardian that in order to capture
me and seal me into a card she must first guess my name.

She comes nearer to me and becomes deep in thought. She looked
confused; I chose to help her. She held her staff in both her hands and
I mimicked her. She stepped back, startled. I too took a step back. It
was the most I could do to make her capture easy, and besides I felt I
owed it to her for hurting her Onii-chan.

I could almost see the lightbulb click on above her head. She brought
her staff down upon me, said my name, and commanded me to return to my
card form. It felt good and normal to be able to obey a command again.
I returned to my spirit form first and floated over to her Onii-chan. I
delicately but surely layed a light kiss on his cheek and said, "I'm
sorry," hoping my apology would be accepted. A few drops of the hot,
wet fluid fell on his cheek.

I then returned to my card form and floated over to her, into my
master's hands.

Fin

Dedicated To: Wish-chan for being a huge help and inspiring me to write
this fanfic, along with everyone who lost loved ones in the horrible
tragedy on Tuesday, September 11, 2001. My condolances and prayers are
with you.

^_^ *grimaces* Was it really THAT bad? *reader nods vigorously* Gomen,
gomen minna-san! I know it was kinda short, but...if I wrote anymore
those of you that absolutely detest this fanfic of mine would be on the
verge of throttling me. Sorta like what Chiharu does to Yamazaki.
*shudders* But before ya guys start throttling me, would ya please give
me some feedback? *reader strokes chin in thought and shakes head*
*pouts and makes puppy face* PRETTY PLEASE WITH TEN SPOONFULS OF SUGAR
ON TOP!? *Nakuru goes spiral-eyed and grins evilly* *Kero-chan goes
spiral-eyed and drools* *Suppi-chan goes berserk and shakes head madly*
*reader merely drools and nods* Arigotou! Domo arigotou! Arigotou
gozaimasu! Otsukaresama! Xie xie! A million thanks! *reader sweatdrops*
You can e-mail me at stelis_petals@hotmail.com. Comments of any sort
are welcome. Compliments (highly reccomended), insults, questions, and
even flames are welcome. But considering this is my FIRST fanfic...be
nice! *reader face faults anime style* So, I'd rather you not flame
me(I already have a low self-esteem) though they are welcome. Aren't I
nice? *reader sweatdrops and shuffles uncomfortably* It was a
rhetorical question. *reader sighs in relief* If you like my writing
style I'll wite more soon. I'm already thinking about a series fic.
*reader shudders* Sayonara! ^_^